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i like saying i'm from california.
and i was thinking about how it went from home being in lake oswego to not having a home for a few years and freaking out about it to the one day i said "yeah i'm going home for a week" and referred to home as california. it makes it seem like that's how it's always been, and, and it should be, like my parents met and married and split but my family my roots are all still down there, hanging out, excited for me to visit. maybe i like this because it will envelope everything until i was seventeen and push it away, and that's how i'd rather remember things